sarahjeanalex:

1.
why isn’t every picture that exists of you with someone else
a picture of you with me instead

all of these people are so many people
and none of these people are me

 

2.
i am sitting in a corner eleven stories high and
i am a very long time away from you

 

3.
you are drinking my blood in a non-literal way
we laugh but make extremely worried faces
i am being myopic because there is only
one screen in front of me and one screen in front of you
and we are practically touching in here
(feeling real is hard work / moving is even harder)

 

4.
spring forward, fall back down
i’m trying not to wonder where you are

are you listening to this too

 

5.
it seems irrational that it is 2014
and i cannot just be in love with another person
who wants to be near me in the same ways
an advance in date doesn’t negate a regard for others
ok i understand but i will try to get what i want anyway
can everyone help

like hello welcome to this place
let’s both just stay

a long time ago someone told me that
it’s not cute to be persistent
(i know you don’t belong to me)
but i am so good at it
i think you will agree

 

6.
after three hours in karpeles i took a two hour walk
i made myself alone because there are too many books in the world already
and you are too good
you squeezed a sigh out of me when i returned and i felt found

 

7.
last night i dreamt someone offered me one thousand dollars to close my eyes and sit in a chair for sixty seconds and instead i moved onto the floor, kneeled and retched loudly in front of him. i stared at my hands pressed flat against the floor and lifted them up one by one. i slowly crawled out of the room.

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sarahjeanalex:

'fallin asleep' is all your email said
i vividly imagined fucking you in the backseat of a car

what’s life for if not taking everything
spoken to me as a sign to move in closer

what’s life for if not using another body
as a placeholder for your fear

what if every time you had sex with someone
all of your insecurities and self-sabotage
transferred from you to them
and sex was like a game of tag that would never end
you have to keep going back
to the same person to transfer the fear again
because you won’t feel better until you do
and you still won’t feel better after

what’s life for if not lying on your back
on a hardwood floor at night
next to another person
slow outside sounds moving in
one hand over the other

crescent moons on the tips of fingers

belly of foam and carbonated sugar

try to not talk about being scared so much

if a feeling doesn’t last, don’t worry

it can come back

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jkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjk:

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jkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjk:

#brooklynzinefest next saturday! bringing a small batch of HOME-BREW #2 w/ these popular pins. Also last chance for HOME-BREW #3, and new treats too, of course!

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jkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjk:

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Contest ends May 1st, 2014. Two random winners will be chosen and notified by message. Free shipping anywhere in the world. Good luck!

jkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjk:

TUMBLR GIVEAWAY: Reblog this post to win 1 of 2 strands of my hair! Sealed in 2x5” clear zip bag. Perfect for many uses, including:

  • DNA test to see if you’re my real dad
  • polyjuice potion
  • making a very small single topknot
  • authentic voodoo doll
  • creating an artificial evil twin named “kjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkj”
  • getting stuck in your mouth
  • festive garland making

Contest ends May 1st, 2014. Two random winners will be chosen and notified by message. Free shipping anywhere in the world. Good luck!

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rachaelleenelson:

1. rachael lee nelson, age six
2. six dead dogs

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sarahjeanalex:

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sarahjeanalex:

matthew rohrer at bear parade

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interface-2014:

Katrina Majkut

interface-2014:

Katrina Majkut

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sarahjeanalex:

my general outlook on life is a lot more worrisome now

that i have realized i’ve perfected how to maintain a balance

of not caring at all about how others perceive me

and caring so much that it is all but crippling


when you told me you haven’t stopped thinking about me

since we ran into each other in the doorway of the kitchen

i told you i was smiling through the phone and i was telling the truth


when i told you i predicted we could be very comfortable together

for a very long time i was still telling the truth


everything inside my mouth seems very intentional now


humans don’t deserve to feel happy or safe

but i am open to trying at it for you


the older i get, the less real the world seems


we all cycle through the same four personal emotions

for our entire lives because we refuse to admit

that sometimes we make the wrong decisions

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